Service Animals - Ep. 9 - Off to Burn in the Desert

Transcript

Chris: 0:17

Hello and welcome to Service Animals. I'm your host, Chris Connors. This is a very sleepy episode. Seven, eight. What are we doing here? If you think I'm redoing this, you're outta your mind. I am not. I am way too tired. Alright, so this is episode nine. Um, let me explain. It is a, uh, 5:38 AM The sun is already up. I am literally getting this out the night before. Really the morning of, um, me leaving, I'm flying out of Denver, going to Salt Lake and uh, going to Element 11, which is a Burning Man type festival in Utah. So I am, uh, super excited and um, I have very. Little to say here, except that consistency is important and this is, this is what it's like when I know I'm not gonna get back until, uh, after, uh, the end of this week. So I couldn't let this week pass without getting an episode out. So, yeah. I'm gonna just say a few things and, uh, and sign off really. But, um, obviously I've been, uh, packing all night. Uh, I turned down a date with that beautiful European woman really sorry to do so, but had to, had to get packing done and obviously I needed it'cause I'm still not done and it is completely too late to get any sleep. So, uh, yeah. Uh, we're figuring it out, but, um, I've never done a Burning Man type episode or type, uh, festival before. I've done one music festival, uh, with the same friend. Shout out Rob. But yeah, just a really incredible time at that one. So I'm looking forward to this one. And obviously being less music focused and more events and experiences focused, I'm very curious what that will be. But, um. Uh, yeah, next week I'll have a, uh, hell of a lot of stories for you, hopefully good ones. So yeah. This week the only funny thing that really happened to me was, uh, like I said, I was working like 12 days in a row. I was trying to save up money, picking up shifts. We just had a bunch of turnover at the bar too, and the restaurant in general. Uh, so I said, said goodbye to, uh, a lot of old school. Uh. Peeps there and, uh, good people. And that's been rough. But I got a text outta nowhere from the only woman I was really seeing. Like, keep in mind this woman, uh, I met her, went on two dates with her and she had two other partners, uh, that she was seeing pretty consistently. And for a decent amount of time, right? So I'm like, okay, I'm the new guy, obviously. I'm just like, you know, the casual date guy you don't really worry about. And she didn't really put any expectations on it, obviously, for being so new. So she sent me a text that said, uh. Hey, Chris. Hope all is well. While I had fun with you, it's probably best if you don't reach out again. Radio silence is really unattractive to me, and I just don't think we're compatible because of that. Thanks for everything Later, and then like a peace emoji, just like my mom could, anything could have happened, like I could have been in a car accident, like in a, in the hospital, like family could have been hurt or, or died like. There's just so many things that could have been happening to me, and that's just the kind of like myopic bullshit that I'm realizing that people really don't notice that they do, is that you can come off all like high and mighty and pretend you're like a open-minded person, or you're empathetic or you can understand the needs of others. And then you can send a text like that and I'm like, I've been working like 12 days straight. I haven't gone on any other dates. You know, not like you're asking, but it's like, you know. You were the last date I went on. I've literally just gone to work and come home trying to get stuff done, keep my head down right now. You know, it's not like I had rudely left a text unanswered or something. So it was just kind of weird'cause like we had a good time on those dates and it was just kind of bummed. But yeah, anyway, so it was only like when it was, uh, it was nine days in between, text too. So I was just like, how is nine days like an egregious amount of time when we're not that serious? Like, why would you just cut things off entirely? Like it's not like I said, or did anything unattractive, and then you became unattractive. You're just like, the silence is deafening and you're neglecting me, Chris. I'm like, no, we, we were casually seeing each other anyway. And again, this is why I don't understand poly very much, or at least the implementation that I see in the people I meet of it. I'd love to know more and I'd love to meet people who do it in a different way, in a healthier way, but like, damn, it truly is like. You know, people have different expectations of each other, and then you meet new people and you keep incorporating them into your life. And I've always thought that could be a healthy thing to do in certain ways, like for experiences. But when you start having expectations on the new people or they have on you. It affects everything whether you want it to or not. Like, you know, people can get hurt when you don't mean to, and people can need things you don't wanna fulfill or you can't or maybe you want things externally that you're not supposed to or isn't part of the rules that you follow with your partner or whatever. You know, I experienced that myself. So, yeah, it's just weird being the outside guy, like the unmarried guy now, trying to date people who are like in these relationships and just like, look, I'm pretty uncomplicated and, uh. You know, I'll never lie or cheat but like, I can't fulfill all your needs while I'm like just being my own self and trying to be casual. But anyway, so that was weird. But yeah, she was cool and I, I had a good time with her, so I'm glad I met her and wish her the best. Yeah, that's really the only thing I've been doing. I, like I said, I've been working so much. Just trying to save up money in anticipation for this, uh, week I'm taking off.'cause like in bartending, you like never take vacations unless you just make enough money to do so, which I haven't for a while. So, yeah, I'm, uh, happy to just take one now. And I definitely feel like it's needed and, uh, my friends have been telling me that I need to experience this. It's like their seventh year doing it, and it'll be my first, so I believe them. And, uh, I always have transformative experiences with this friend. So very excited to. Journey out there and, uh, you know, rough it for a bit and, uh, figure myself out, hopefully come back in one piece. Yeah, man, fuck, I gotta catch a flight in like six hours, like exactly seven hours actually. And I'm so exhausted. Uh, so I'm gonna cut it there. Yeah. But uh. Thank you for listening to this. Sorry. These episodes have been, uh, not as engaging as of late. I hope I still say at least one thing that makes you laugh or think. But, um, yeah, I am, uh, I'm gonna be gone for the week and needed to get this out and we'll be back next week Monday, and might record Monday night when I get home. Might, uh, wait a couple days, but, uh, we'll see. Yeah. Anyway, um, I appreciate you thank you for listening. Wish me luck if you, uh. Believe in sending good vibes out to the universe. I'm sure I could use them. And, um, yeah. I will, uh, talk to you all soon and until next time. Stay wild my friends.